Painful GoodBye..

I was sitting alone.... and started to think about her......

She was adorable, cute and sweet that all you want to do is to play with her all day. She was smart, she can easily identify if you're a good friend or not. She was a sunshine in this dark world and a stress reliever. Listening to her laugh sounded more like a breath of fresh air. She was a perfect baby, a precious gift given by GOD..

Andrea Nicole Ocon

It was a sunny day last December 6, 2012 when she had a very high fever. Her temperature goes to 41 degrees Celsius  Her parents automatically brought her to the nearest hospital due to panic. At first, it was a normal fever but it went bad when she chilled and had convulsion at exactly 6 pm. She was treated right away and her fever turned back to normal after bathing her with ice. After 5 hours, she chilled again and had her second convulsion. She was again bathed with ice and injected with anti convulsion. Starting that moment, she can't open her eyes anymore. She remained comatose for at least 3 days. She fought for her life, we saw that. When doctor inserted her pharyngeal airway and begin assisting her ventilation, she easily opened her mouth even if blood flows over the tube. Her pulse was rapid, she was weak but her oxygen saturation is at 99%. We saw her effort of fighting for her life maybe because she doesn't want us to cry and to be worried about her but I think she's really not for us. And for God's choice as the creator of life, end everything to end her suffering. Her life ended last December 10, 2012 at 3:40 am, same time when sorrow and grief started to consume us but we know that she's with God now and she's happy. She's now an angel that will guide us till our last days. God has a plan, we all know that. He won't give us trials that we can't handle. God will always give us reason to help us realize that everything is not constant, may it not be that painful but it will be with the same lesson, about how we live our life. So, we need to enjoy life while we are still alive and love all the people arround us.

Nicole on her 1st Birthday

Nicole with her mommy..

Now, life without her is like a box full of water. No space for smile and happiness. All that we felt is emptiness. We were left with mourning heart. But we need to accept the fact and move on. Though it's not easy, it would be the reality. This is a painful goodbye, a sudden death that crashed our hearts. You know that we love you so much but we can't take you back. You will always be in our hearts forever. Stay happy with God and don't worry about us. You are an angel and that's what God wants you to be.. Merry Christmas. ♥